I am hovering somewhere between the land of nod and the world of sheer exhaustion. Luckily for me my valentines date is right with me riding the wave of knackeredness.
Day two on the ward was trickier than day one. For some reason I spent the last month scared to death about surgery and worried sick about BB’s spica cast but forgot to panic about the hospital stay and the bit in-between where BB would transform from a wobbly picture of health into a really poorly little lady.
Today has involved me losing on numerous occasions to he who helped create them at gin rummy, a girl with a high temperature, some possible epileptic seizures, and an breastfeeding incident which may have involved me dangling my boob into a cot whilst singing the theme tune to ‘in the night garden.’
And the fun doesn’t stop here, we are just waiting on blood results to see if BB needs a blood transfusion in the night as we can’t get her heart to stop pounding.
But on the bright side, twin boy and girl love the hospital. They have discovered the people named ‘play specialists’ who have become their new 121 carers for half term. Also twin boy, ever the gallant soul, gracefully offered to take BB’s place in the cast once he realised that she was allowed to watch CBeebies all day in bed without being yelled at once.
But day two is done, and I got a card with a heart on it, and I got to spent all day with the chap I love, and I learnt how to change a nappy in a spica cast…
There are so many poorly children here, you can’t help but feel grateful that our trauma should be over in three months, for others this seems to be their reality, for us we hope for it to never be the norm.
Thanks for all the fab comments, tweets, texts and messages, we all really appreciate them.
Feb 14, 2012 @ 22:41:00
I have been thinking about you non stop, and probably bugging the hell out of you with my texts, I’m scared about surgery now and can only imagine what your going through. Keep strong, you are showing amazing strength. xx
Feb 18, 2012 @ 19:08:23
Your texts kept me going x
Feb 14, 2012 @ 22:47:17
Aw I’m sorry your family is having to go through this. It must be such a constant worry.
I remember the dangling boobs stage with my own kids. The best was over the babies car seat while my partner at the time was driving at 70 miles an hour down the M4. That was breastfeeding on the edge for sure.
Feb 18, 2012 @ 19:08:49
Ohhh respect x
Feb 14, 2012 @ 22:49:41
I have barely written but I talk about you and what is happening loads and think about you more. Braver than brave, you and your family are an inspiration. I love you everso everso much. Keep smiling And gentle hug to BB xxxx
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:27:44
Aww love you x
Feb 14, 2012 @ 22:51:35
thinking of you & BB…..I hope her little heart stops pounding so fast so you can all get some rest xx
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:28:34
Thanks Helen x
Feb 14, 2012 @ 23:16:31
All the mums in the ward will love your words of inspiration and blogs, they always bring a smile to me on bad days, spread your unique ray of sunshine, it’s just what they and you need x x hope bb is feeling better soon to inspire some more inspirational stories obviously not forgetting twin boy or girl how make my boy appear “normal ” lol best wishes to you all x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:29:32
Lol, thanks x
Feb 15, 2012 @ 04:51:11
Just wanted to say Hi and that I am thinking of you and your lovely family at this time. I guess you just have to take each day as it comes. There will be good ones and bad ones and ones in between, but hopefully as each day passes your daughter will become stronger and healthier. She sounds like an amazing wee soul. Take care of yourselves. All my love and best wishes x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:30:17
Thank you so much x
Feb 15, 2012 @ 07:05:48
Thinking of you all and hoping BB gets well very soon x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:30:52
Thanks x
Feb 15, 2012 @ 07:27:28
Yes I remember those hours can seem to take forever in hospital with little ones. Hope she feels better today
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:31:29
Endless hours….
Feb 15, 2012 @ 07:34:27
Hope day 3 is better and BB doesn’t need blood transfusion. Thinking of you… if you are in RBH i know you are in great hands. Hope you are getting a modicum of sleep though!!
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:32:29
We were in john radcliffe this time, they were fabulous.
Feb 15, 2012 @ 07:43:14
Fingers crossed for day 3, thinking of you and BB. And hospital ‘play specialists’ rock don’t they!
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:33:11
The twins simply adored them
Feb 15, 2012 @ 08:07:41
ah you cant beat those ‘play specialists’ what a job! Thinking of you and hoping that today is a better day x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:33:57
Thank you x
Feb 15, 2012 @ 08:43:27
Hugs x Hope day three is better! x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:34:44
Thanks x. X
Feb 15, 2012 @ 08:50:23
Thinking of all you guys 🙂 hoping day 3 brings good news and a slightly slower beating heart for BB.
The dangling boob made me smile and I am sure it was appreciated by BB.
Take care xxx
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:35:27
She loves a dangling boobie….
Feb 15, 2012 @ 09:13:08
Have been thinking about you lovely xx
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:36:05
Hope all is well with you ella x
Feb 15, 2012 @ 09:38:38
Oh Babe my heart goes out to you. I remember when my then 2 year old was in hospital for just 2 nights and seeing the children there who’s rooms had become their homes with toys, clothes racks etc and guilty as I felt that’s what got me through because I knew we were the lucky ones. Big hugs. x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:36:48
Thanks Kate x
Feb 15, 2012 @ 10:46:16
Sending warm thoughts (and as many play specialists as the twins can handle) your way x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:37:24
Thanks
Feb 15, 2012 @ 11:49:09
I am thinking of you all. Play specialists are cool. Hope BB is better this morning, you are all troopers
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:38:04
Cheers Jen x
Feb 15, 2012 @ 20:00:15
Sending lots of love to you all. It’s such a scary time, when little ones are in hospital, but she is young and strong and hoping you are all home soon take care x
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:39:54
Thank you x x x. Z
Feb 15, 2012 @ 20:11:30
It’s only getting to get better from here.
Sending lots of love. X
Feb 18, 2012 @ 22:40:39
Cheers gemma x
Feb 23, 2012 @ 09:53:02
Hugs.
Feb 23, 2012 @ 15:38:29
Thanks x